521: “A Song I Never Would’ve Heard”

                “…sharing a song I never would’ve heard and been struck dumb with glee by had I had my shit more together.” -Ross Gay, “Among the Rewards of My Sloth…” The Book of Delights p. 123
                “I thought to anchor my essay in an interdisciplinary epigraph, then delve into the reasons and ways that assessment could and should sidestep the standard language ideology […] Here I was.” -Maria José Palacios Figueroa, “Too-long reflections on washback”

                My partner and I have started—well, started again—reading The Book of Delights out loud together before bed. We also started last year, or two years ago, and then fell off. The pages fluttering by fast like fall leaves all a-whirl, then pausing, a frozen winter morning, sleepy and bright. Now it’s turning into a game with us. We just celebrated our first anniversary. We’ve been noting, a delight of being married is this, a delight of being married is that. (And yes, I’m coy: those delights are ours, for us, we’ll share them maybe if you visit, but not here). And a game for the everyday, every day, too. Today’s delight: lying on the floor. The complete release of it. Today’s delight: wrestling with my dissertation. Today’s delight: a friend visiting, and the fried zucchini (from our garden!) we shared. Now the crickets (I think they’re crickets?), not in that written way of crickets to mean silence, but singing.
                By which I mean: it’s 9:30 pm and I meant to start writing this sooner. I knew it was Wednesday. I knew I would post something. By which I mean: I’m glad I didn’t write this sooner. One of my favorite things writing can do is open to an experience of making, a space where I thought to start this way and yet here I am far off from my expectations. What a delight. The little dance of whatever we’re thinking about, together, here, and the crickets singing summer.

487: “The Syrup” & The Sun (Robin Wall Kimmerer)

                “The syrup we pour over pancakes on a winter morning is summer sunshine flowing in golden streams to pool on our plates.” -Robin Wall Kimmerer, Braiding Sweetgrass, p. 86

                It’s gotten cold in Illinois. My love and I covered our little garden of greens, the kale leaves still vibrant (the spinach a little less so, though still lush after our first two frosts), and we’ve started staying warm with our fireplace. That means I’m splitting firewood again like I remember doing as a teen.
                I love how splitting firewood and planting kale, spinach, and arugula (I can’t leave out those deliciously spicy friends) brings me back to a being-ness and moving-ness of the world. It’s different, for me, when I move the thermostat and a distant hum indicates a furnace that I don’t know how to fix or feed has started. When I started imagining writing this post, I was worried I didn’t have a new thought. Not really. And I don’t think I have, not really, but this isn’t a thought-post. Syrup is summer sunshine. Kimmerer’s line comes from a chapter on making maple syrup. The heat that moves around me is always something: a dance that stepped along before (as gas or electricity or a tree’s reaching branches) and will keep stepping along (out through the front door, and in through me, too, come to think of it). This is a post about being with that being-ness. About recognizing the ways my habits pull me away from the roots of kale and the grain of wood and the bugs, I don’t know their name, who’ve been nibbling from the same plants I’m nibbling. About relishing the practices that bring me back. Whsh. Thunk. I wish I could end this with the sound of an axe landing, or with the touch of dirt, cool and close.